the inability to sleep, while pondering about different memories which are closest to you or pondering about memories which had hurt you in a way and changed who you were as a person. Instances which made you wonder is it worth it to think about it yet we are not being able to let go of this very memory that made you who you are.
Sometimes you feel that you could be thrown inside a landfill of emotions and relive those moments that brought tears and laughter at the same time and the feeling is torturous and these emotions are the reason you can’t sleep. Living with pain of reliving those emotions is painful as we have lost a lot of people in these memories those who meant the world to ous and we are forgotten by them for a situation, that was their fault but we were ready to take the blame.
Being an insomniac is basically reliving those emotions day in and day out and changing who you are maybe towards the better or the worse but you do change yourself, which is the most difficult thing . Sometimes it aint worth it.